Traci,
Someone sent me this link. I have been reading for hours, I’m sorry that I looked at your private stuff. There are no words I could utter that would express my sorrow at how I have acted and treated you. I wish I could know what I know now and start over. I can’t believe how I was acting and how callous I was. The alcohol & pain meds I was on did not help the situation at all.
My feelings for you have grown stronger as I read how brilliant, dynamic etc. you are. You are the best Mom in the world. Even if we had discussed this stuff, It would not have mattered at that time. I did not have a clue!
I have been such an absolute ASSHOLE to you and the girls. The abuse stops with me. My mind has grown more clear and I think more about kindness and care. I will not ever go back to that life again. Youhave shown me longsuffering kindness, love & care. Most of which I did not deserve. It has caused too much pain for you and way too much remorse for me. I wish you could try to trust me once more, I will not let you down again. I will continue to heal and move ahead. I still want you as a partner and after we are out of the recession and property values go back up, I want to sell teh house and go travel with you, to all the places on your list.
My heart is eternally yours Traci. I know now you need space and I will honor that. ~ Tim~
Posted by Tim on August 6, 2009 at 8:29 am
Traci,
Someone sent me this link. I have been reading for hours, I’m sorry that I looked at your private stuff. There are no words I could utter that would express my sorrow at how I have acted and treated you. I wish I could know what I know now and start over. I can’t believe how I was acting and how callous I was. The alcohol & pain meds I was on did not help the situation at all.
My feelings for you have grown stronger as I read how brilliant, dynamic etc. you are. You are the best Mom in the world. Even if we had discussed this stuff, It would not have mattered at that time. I did not have a clue!
I have been such an absolute ASSHOLE to you and the girls. The abuse stops with me. My mind has grown more clear and I think more about kindness and care. I will not ever go back to that life again. Youhave shown me longsuffering kindness, love & care. Most of which I did not deserve. It has caused too much pain for you and way too much remorse for me. I wish you could try to trust me once more, I will not let you down again. I will continue to heal and move ahead. I still want you as a partner and after we are out of the recession and property values go back up, I want to sell teh house and go travel with you, to all the places on your list.
My heart is eternally yours Traci. I know now you need space and I will honor that. ~ Tim~